WHAT HAPPENED LADY FISHBONE?

It has been a while since I've been active in making art.

Due to some personal decisions in life affects of what I am right now. I can't even see a glimpse of light of making new artworks and be active in the near future. But, that is totally fine. Life has it's cycle; there is a time for everything. A time to cry, and a time to be happy. A time for winning, and a time for losing. It is all part of life. 

I admit that there are shortcomings that I have done in art, and I hope to make it up soon. Forgive me for what have I done. I lost the fire that I had unlike when I started my career as a Fishbone Artist around 2014. It could have been 10 years now. It's always like on-and-off system. 

I still remember those days that I am always excited to compete, go to other places for exhibits, joining competitions, being judge for art contest, being a guest speaker; have an art talk and give inspiration, being invited to do an art workshop, media invitation, and of course connecting with fellow artists and enthusiasts. 

I miss those days that I am free. I can do more and do art without limitations. 

I hope someday I can freely create art again. Wherein I can pour all my mind, heart, energy and time again. 

There are lots of opportunities that have passed (teary eyes) that could have gained more in my art financially. Seriously. It's going international. The uniqueness has always been the edge. The feeling of regret missing all those big chances hits me so sad. (parang 'di talaga nauubos ang opportunity na parting sana?) I am getting there to the peak, but suddenly felt helpless :(

Unfortunately, both parents passed in 2021. Since then, I lost the most supportive people in this craft I do. They were my team mates. I remember there is this project that needs to be done in 3 days. We all rushed it; mama, papa and I are having overtime for it. 

Time will tell when I can get back. 

For now, writing will be my friend. It strike me so hard feeling alone- no one to share my thoughts and feelings about everything that is happening in my life at this time since the passing of my parents. Someone that can understand and share the same or similar point of view with me. Not all can be a friend and not all will care.

So, here I am writing. Watch out more for more of postings. Thank you for reading.